Months

I just havent felt much like sharing here lately. Sorry about that for all the voyeurs that like to read what I am doing. I have been working real heard the last few weeks trying to make ends meet and trying to decide what I want to do for the rest of my life. I am having some fun with my work now, but not as much as I would like to, nor are all the perks of being self employed all they are cracked up to be.

Especially when you have the burden of paying all of the expenses including 1000.00 a month for your own health insurance. Gas price are at 3.25 a gallon, and I know they are supposed to come down, but for a guy that drives around the 41 cents the government gives you at tax time is bullshit. So I got the resume out there and I am getting a bunch of phone calls for the same line of work, which if I am not doing it with my father, and on my own I am not doing it at all.

I went to the Dr. for the first time in about 10 years for something other then a sinus infection last week. My blood pressure was through the roof. It is always a bit high but on that day it was way too high 175/110. They asked me why it was so high I said "yesterday I ate some beef jerky, and had a ton of tea, and I have been sitting in this room for an hour worried that at any moment someone is going to come in here and shove a finger up my ass"... The Dr. got a good laugh out of tha tans said I dont have to worry about that for a while.

I admitted that my work outs have been half assed, or shitty and that I havent been running or lifting like I would want to, plus I have a ton on my mind...I asked him to just put me on medicine so I dont have a stroke and I will get back to doing what I need to, to take care of myself.

He put me on some Beta blockers, and since I started them I feel much better. I thought it was my allergies that were making me feel like shit but it was my blood pressure. I have been checking it and it is in the 135/80 range. The best part is I feel so much better.

Working out though has been really whacked out. I can run forever cardio vascular wise, I dont get out of breath but my legs are getting fatigued which is something I am not used to during 30 mins of cardio.

I got in a pretty solid 45 mins last night but the legs were burnt after wards. 10 mins of running and then the rest on the eliptical machine. Felt good and headed back tonight for some lifting and cardio.

The forums: This blog orginally came about as an extension of my online self through a site called fit to be men. It was a fitness site primarliy that eventually became a neighborhood meeting place.

Now it seems as if it has become the neighborhood grave yard.

There isn't a lot of activity from its members and there is not a lot of new memberships, legit anyway, being driven to the site.

I am not sure if that is the evolution of a site, or the neglect of the owner. But it is the case. I would like to see the site rise from the ashes and be the place it was, with the people the way they were.

I am also not sure if it is that people have lost their way of found a new one. I do miss what it once was though.