I got a nice email today.

Below is my response.

It is easy to read the statistics and know that 25% of all pergnancy end in miscarriage and know that of course lots of people and lots of pregnancies end this way. But for whatever reason it is comforting to know that other people I know have been throught the same thing. I had put a post as to exactly how it happened for us in my blog but it got eaten. I saw the baby didnt have a heart beat as soon as they did the ultrasound it was painful and scary...I know what to look for when looking on those thing from when she was pregnant with Jack. It was terrible.

The hardest part for me was seeing the screen with no heart beat before my wife. She was looking at me and asking me what was going on, and where the heartbeat way. Opening the front door yesterday after we got home forom the hospital was equally as hard.

I was getting excited about seeing two babies driving my wife nuts when I came home from work. Baby food all over the place, and two kids singing and making noise with peas, and chicken nuggests all over the floor. It will happen it was just sad to see that it wasnt going to happen when I thought it was.....I havent cried at all, I kinda believe that whatever geneticily was wrong that the baby is better off never making it here, then making it here with all its organs on the outside of its body or whatever was wrong. We would have loved it either way but it would have been harder for the baby then I would want it to be.

I dont think they will be doing any cytology test on it because it is the first miscarriage, and she has already had a succcessful pregnancy...Although I am not sure...

Its weird because with the last pregnancy her hormone levels were off and at first they suggested that she wouldnt carry, now this time they were perfect (when they tested at the begining), and this is the results.

Life.